Mental Health – a Recurring Theme
Lise says there's nothing out there for mental health for women with HF or their families.
Written testimony
Do you see a theme there? Mental health. Mental health – we all have so bad, us and the people around us – there’s nothing out there. That just blows me away. It’s the mental health. Nobody – they go – they take care of the body. They treat the body. They look to the body for symptoms. Nobody looks you know to your emotions, your mental wellbeing and that’s so wrong. Because your mental wellbeing actually affects your body.
Emotional Reaction to Heart Failure (HF)
In our interviews with women, mental health services and supports were consistently described as the biggest gaps in care. Despite strong emotional reactions to the initial diagnosis of HF or talk of heart transplant, mental health services and supports were not always offered. Women were often shocked, fearful and felt lost following a diagnosis of HF. A few women continued to deal with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) that still had an impact on their lives years after diagnosis. They spoke about ongoing anxiety and depression as they and their families dealt with constant uncertainties and profound life changes because of their HF.
Once Barbara realized the full impact of HF, it was the sorriest day of her life.
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That’s when I saw the cardiologist after one of my visits to the hospital and he said, ‘It’s not quite as bad as what they said it was in the hospital. You know it’s not right-sided; it’s not left-sided. It’s just a malaise of the heart, if you will. It’s […]
Stevie developed PTSD, anxiety, and depression related to her medical incident.
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I was diagnosed with PTSD from the incident, medically, like medical-induced PTSD, as well as anxiety and depression related to my medical incident, as well as postpartum. So safe to say I did not get the right mental health treatment after my issue. They kind of just sent me home […]
The word ‘shock’ was used by several women to describe hearing or reading their diagnosis. Tara described her experience as “a total shock” and Louise also went “through the shock of being disabled. My career was gone. It was all kinds of stuff” and hearing “you’ve got heart failure – kind of blew me up.” Sharon1 said “I was shocked”, the first time she ended up in hospital due to heart problems.
Susan1 describes how shocking it was to read the diagnosis.
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I had my chart on my lap back to my room. And I remember opening up and you know the first page has got the diagnosis? And it said ‘end-stage cardiomyopathy’. And that was a huge thing because like the reality really hit me then, wow, like I’m really sick. […]
The need for emotional and mental health support at the point of diagnosis was identified by several women. Ginette says “the beginning of the incident is the most important part of the journey… I needed help six years ago… I didn’t get it.” Barbara found it “very depressing” at first, as her whole life changed in a short time. Ronda said “in the beginning, I was a big negative. I was a little depressed.”
Jenny's reaction to the HF diagnosis was to joke and hide her feelings.
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I was really young. And I’m 23 in a hospital and I’m kind of – my coping was joking it, joking it off. Like this is a joke. This can’t, this isn’t happening. This is the joke, that this is happening, kind of idea. And (a nurse) looked at me […]
Louise, Ginette, and Lise all describe feeling ‘lost’ when you are diagnosed with heart failure. Ginette said “… sometimes I am so confused and so lost but I try like the rest of the world to get up every morning and do my best with what I got because what else am I supposed to do, just give up and die, you know?”
Other women spoke about their fears of death and what life will look like as time moves on. Pam asked “Am I going to die?”, giving voice to worries that many women have. Susan1 describes how “the fear was starting to sink in”, knowing that her condition was getting worse over time.
Stevie says her biggest fear is dying and not being able to care for her kids.
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Like my biggest fear is dying from heart disease and not being able to care for my kids. Like that’s my biggest fear. And everyone’s like, ‘Oh well, you have to say if you’re going to hurt yourself or hurt someone else.’ And I’m like, ‘No, I’m the farthest away […]
Sharon2 has a certain timidity that she did not have before.
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I also know that I have a certain timidity that I didn’t before. What does that mean? There’s something that I fight to overcome and I’m not as physically active as I used to be and I would like to be. Now I exercise every day, during the winter I […]
Professional Mental Health Support Needed as Part of HF Care
Those women who received professional mental health support said it was very helpful in times of crisis and also helped them develop self-care and coping skills. However, mental health and psychological services were not always offered, nor were they a routine part of HF care. Many women had to seek out and pay for their supports privately or go without. Funded and available psychological counselling was only a routine part of transplant care teams, who reportedly provide free counselling for life.
Lise has always had psychological services upon receiving a heart failure diagnosis.
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And I’m completely, completely shocked when I hear it. Because when I start talking to people and things like this I’m like ‘Look, I have a psychologist on my team. Well – it’s supplied by the hospital, why don’t you?’ And it’s so rare. It is so rare to be […]
Lynda was fortunate to be a part of a heart failure program that offered psychiatric care including medication if needed. Later, she became part of the transplant program which offers access to counselling support for the rest of her life. Naomi found her counsellor very helpful in adjusting to life with heart failure.
Lynda describes all the mental health support that she received as part of her care.
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When I was in heart failure and I was dealing with the [bigger hospital] heart program. I was, I used the exercise program which I was able to use locally thank goodness. And I also had, they had a psychiatrist right there and I could use him at any time […]
Having access to a psychologist on her care team was extremely helpful to Naomi.
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The thing is I don’t have to explain to her any of my heart stuff. She already knows it and she already has read my entire chart which is extremely helpful because I mean like we’ve been talking for like almost an hour and like can you believe me trying […]
No Mental Health Help Offered
Some women were not offered any mental health or psychological support, leaving them on their own to cope with devastating life changes. Lillian could not believe that there was no mental health or emotional support offered as part of her cardiac care.
Lillian says "for heart failure – there's nothing."
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I was kind of flabbergasted that there was nothing. Yeah, for heart failure – there’s nothing. But there is actually, it turns out, but she [cardiologist] didn’t know of anything. – like ‘I blow apart your life, like blow part your life and I’ll meet you in a month. I’ll talk […]
Ginette's insurance does not offer enough coverage to pay for counselling.
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And I was told that I only had $150 a year of insurance coverage to go see somebody to help me mentally. Really, $150 is one appointment, what am I supposed to do with that? And I talked to some of the ladies in my group and they’re saying, ‘Yeah […]
Affects Entire Family
Family members, particularly children and spouses, may also need support when their mother or wife is diagnosed with heart failure. Several women spoke about the amount of stress and fear that their HF placed on their parents, children, spouses and siblings who feared that they might lose their loved one.
Cathy describes how fear affected her whole family.
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I can say that this diagnosis was not only hard for me, but hard for my entire family. I had a procedure done. And I had blood clots from my toes all the way to the upper end of my thigh. When you have emergency surgery like that, and it’s […]
Jennifer's children did not want to be away from her, in case something happened.
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And then when my kids had a tough time, because they were young, and they had had no experience with any health issues with friends or family in the past, and, you know, they, it shook them, they had issues returning to like sleepovers, because they didn’t want to be […]
Lynda's husband and son experienced significant fears about her health.
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My son, he had a really tough time because they only gave me a four percent chance to get off the table for the, the emergency triple bypass and each day it went up. The next day it went up to five percent. So, my son watched me and he, […]
Naomi describes role changes and difficulties within her family as a result of her illness.
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It really was hard because I’m the oldest. I’ve always taken on a lot of responsibility, and I love it. I’m fine with it. I enjoy it but my siblings had to like really, to fend for themselves because I was in the hospital. My mom was with me. Well […]