Christine searched online to understand what was normal or not for postpartum depression as she wanted to understand her symptoms.

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Interviewer: And did you also look for information about anxiety or about the symptoms you’re experiencing?

I didn’t, what I looked up more was, is it normal for me to feel like this, I didn’t really look up coping mechanisms, which I probably should have been looking at. What I cared more about was is this normal, and really, I shouldn’t have been worrying about that. But that is what I was thinking about. Cos to me, if it was normal, it meant I was going to get over it.

So, I would look up oh, so you know, one of the things I looked up when I was pregnant, almost going to have my son was I kind of feel I kind of regret getting pregnant, to kind of regret having this baby like I’m, I’m worried about having this baby. And I would Google. And as soon as I saw, oh, it’s normal to feel like this, I thought great, oh, put off my phone, go to sleep.

I didn’t learn how to cope with it. And probably that would have been a much better thing to be looking at. But that’s most of the time, what I was looking at was, was that kind of thing. But then when I had my son and I was looking at, I haven’t eaten in two weeks, I really don’t want to spend any time with my baby. Then I started seeing more things that said, this could be more signs of depression versus baby blues. And I was falling right into the depression category and not the baby blues.

So, when I was looking at anxiety wasn’t, I wasn’t looking at anxiety, I was just sort of looking at what does postpartum depression look like versus baby blues. And that’s what I kind of was reading about.

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