Erin1 returned to work while her partner stayed at home, hoping that things would get better.
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And as well, I kept thinking about what the doctor had said, that really, the only thing stopping me was fear, and that, you know, I could set myself up and I could, you know, see a psychiatrist and – and maybe this time it wouldn’t be so bad, because if I had a normal pregnancy and I didn’t have a baby in the NICU and all those other things, it would be better. Plus, the decision was made that I would go back to work and that my partner would stay home with the baby. So that was kind of my – my decision. It was I guess the decision of – of hope that things will be better.
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