Financial stress played a role in Karmin's depression and in the decision to return back to work earlier than planned.
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I feel like it can bring – being postpartum and being on maternity leave, I feel like in Canada we’re lucky to even have a maternity leave and receive benefits from the government. But there’s no way that that’s like a livable wage, so I feel like we had a lot of financial stress too, which I feel like contributed to my depression. Whereas, like, my regular depression I didn’t really have too much, like, for financial stress because I was still able to work and go to my job when I was experiencing that other depression. Yeah, there’s just a lot of change going on at once, and it’s a huge life change, and like I like to think that I’m somebody that’s good with change, but I’m not. But, like I don’t respond emotionally well to change. And yeah, I just kind of felt like it was completely different because of all the other external factors, but also, like, a lot of physiological level.
Yeah. Just because I feel like it’ll help me – I kind of feel like me going back to work I’ll be able to – like I won’t be as stressed – like I’m finding that I’m not as present with my daughter right now as what I could be. I find that I – I am preoccupied a lot with the stress and that. And finances. So I think with me going back to work I think I’ll be able to be more present with my daughter when I’m with her, rather than worrying about, you know – there’s also a formula shortage right now too, and I do – we do combo feed with breast milk and formula, but there’s also this formula shortage going on, so, you know, being worried about – you know, I don’t want to be worried about when her next – when I can get her next thing of formula, like, financially, and then also, like, finding it right now has been really tough.
Yeah, and I know that, like, being a stay-at-home mom isn’t realistic for myself. Like, mentally. Like, I know that – like I love my career. And I know that that’s my calling. I mean being a mother’s also my calling, but I know that I need to go back to work, so I’ve always known that this is another transition in our life that’s had to happen. Unfortunately it’s a little bit earlier than what I wanted it to be, but I am also looking forward to kind of just hopefully falling into ‘normal’ life and how things are supposed to be.
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