Joining a group where Michelle1 could share her experiences with people who understand was a great support for her.

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So, that was a great source of support for me early on because I – it’s a woman – the woman that runs it is a registered social worker. And she was the first person I spoke to, I did a phone interview with her and she was the first person I spoke to that actually got it, you know?

Not that she gave me permission to feel the way I was feeling because I knew, you know, me not bonding or loving with my LO is part of the disease and it will happen potentially. But she identified what I was going through and I didn’t know I was going through which was a big part of it was the shift from being a professional woman and then being a mother. So, the loss of identity, the loss of the self, the loss of freedom, you know, society glamorizing and glamorizing motherhood and making it the sort of la la land of wonderful little baby cries. No, newborns are annoying. They’re made to be annoying so that they survive. Poop is not fun, talking about poop all the time is not fun.

But she got this. She asked who I was before, before I became a mother and how I feel now. And she got it in a way that nobody else has I think since. So she runs this group, the group that I attended and I found it extremely helpful. It was at a point where the medication still hadn’t kicked in but I can meet these women and tell them, you know, I still don’t love my son, I still don’t have these feelings that most moms do, I don’t feel like I’m bonding with him. I don’t think he was bonding with me. And they just said it’ll come. So, that was really encouraging.

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