Susan put on a happy face but felt embarrassed; she didn't want anyone to know she was struggling.

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And I thought, oh my God, this is the rest of my life. Like this is going to be the rest of my life. I remember that night just thinking like my world has just changed and not for the better. I felt so alone and so isolated and it was in November so really bad time of year. And I’d never felt like that before, you know? When she was about a month old I realized, wow, every single day I have been crying almost all day every day. When my husband’s home, I tried to put on a happy face because I didn’t want him to stress. He has to work. I didn’t want him to stress about how I was feeling and I was also embarrassed about it. I didn’t want anyone to know that I was struggling. So when I was around people, I would pretend to be happy. Pretend to be that happy mom. But inside I didn’t feel that at all. I never felt so alone in my whole life.

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